Awkward Times
Journal Entry: Sat Apr 19, 2008, 11:06 PM
- Mood:
Wow! - Listening to: Dead Boy's Poem - Nightwish
- Reading: Hellgate:London Goetia - Mel Odom
- Watching: The Last Dragon
- Playing: Digimon Dusk
- Eating: A huge sub
- Drinking: Flavored Water
Well, as a whole this second semester of college has been rough. I think there's been a pretty good balance of good and bad, but moreso on the bad side.
The outcome of everything is not all bad, however. I have a wonderful girlfriend, somewhat loving family, and a great group of friends.
On the girlfriend front, her name is Crystal, and she's 23. I really don't know how, but she puts up with me when I reach the point of doing odd things without being able to stop myself, such as just randomly saying something, making my limbs move, or just bursting out laughing. I don't know why I do said things, it just really happens. We've been together for a couple months now, and this week was her birthday week. She turned 23 on Monday, the 14th.
Before her birthday, however, I presented her with a strawberry iced angelfood cake and a bag of small gifts, and on Monday, well, we had our first real kiss on the lips. It was pretty short, but it happened. It took me the whole day at the zoo to bring up the courage to do it, because I was afraid of really blowing the moment. On the kiss, I actually asked her parents' permission because I felt I needed to, in order to show the respect that I have for her parents' feelings about our being together. Crystal has really strong ties with her parents and I was trying to make sure not to offend said ties.
I've been doing my best in order to be a good boyfriend, and I know I'm rough around the edges, probably moreso than I think, but she tolerates me. I can honestly say that I love her.
The reason I said somewhat loving on the family, well....My dad and I got into an argument. My mom had been working on getting the house to a presentable state, since she figured I may be inviting Crystal home some time. He popped off that I never did anything to help with the house in the first place, and neither did anyone in the house. He kept spouting random obscenities toward me, and when I finally turned around and looked at him, his look went from being high and mighty to horrified. I can't remember half of the things I said to him, and I really don't want to. He tried to guilt trip me by using his usual "Well, nobody loves me in this house," and "I could leave right now." What really shocked me was my mom. She came up, pushed me out of the way and got in his face and said "If you want to leave so D*** bad, go!" Noone said anything else after my mom had her say, and I went outside and tended to the animals.
Later that day, it was a Wednesday, we recieved a call that someone who helped raise me as a child and was a great friend to the family, essentially making her family to us, passed away from cancer. I made a promise to her, Patty Melton, that I wouldn't cry for her death. It was something she forced me to do, and I'm doing my best to make good on the promise. It's hard knowing that she won't get a chance to meet Crystal, because she wanted to meet my first girlfriend whenever I decided I was confident enough to go into a relationship.
Anyways, I have found that I have many good friends. I took a minute to step back and look at how many people I knew, how many I actually talked to, and how many I actually cared to talk to. I found that most of the people I knew, I talked to, and the same way on the people I talk to. I'm a very hard person to be around because I am very sarcastic and random at times, and I have certain problems which cause those tendancies to show more. I've always had pretty good control over what I do and say, but now the control is slipping and it seems like I'm showing my rear end more often. My sense of self is also slipping, meaning in that I'm losing sight of who I am. Everything I use to be has changed, and I am completely different from where I started in college.
In artistry news, I'm getting more of a want to draw again. My Life Drawing class is beginning to really bore me now, though, but I have found that picking one drawing and then working on filling it out has done more good for me than trying to do a bunch at once. My focus on my work is slipping, however, which is making it harder to put out complete works. I have a total of 20 WIPS on top of the 2 final art projects I have in the works. It saddens me that I haven't done anything to a level of completion since my Life drawing midterm, in which I HAD to complete.
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CHINESE HOROSCOPE :
THE YEAR OF THE IRON DRAGON,
WISHING YOU PROSPERITY AND GOOD FORTUNE IN THE
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FOLLOW THE INSTRUCTIONS -
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DO NOT READ AHEAD, JUST DO IT.
IT TAKES ABOUT 3 MINUTES - WORTH A TRY
1st. Get PEN and PAPER
2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW
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ONE LINE AT THE TIME
DON`T READ AHEAD
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1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT.
2. BESIDE the NUMBERS 1 & 2 ,
WRITE DOWN ANY
2 NUMBERS YOU WANT..
DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER?
3. BESIDE the NUMBERS 3 & 7 ,
WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS
OF THE OPPOSITE SEX.
CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT WILL NOT TURN OUT RIGHT
4. WRITE ANYONES NAME
(like FRIENDS or FAMILY...)
next to 4, 5, & 6 .
DON`T CHEAT OR YOU`LL BE UPSET THAT YOU DID
5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 11
6. Finally,
MAKE A WISH
ARE YOU READY?
HERE IS THE
KEY TO THE GAME
1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE YOU MUST TELL ABOUT THIS GAME is found in
SPACE 2
2. THE PERSON IN SPACE
3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE
3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in
SPACE 7
4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in
SPACE 4
5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO
KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.
6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS YOUR
LUCKY STAR
7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE
PERSON IN NUMBER 3
8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE
PERSON IN 7
9. THE 10 TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT
YOUR MIND
10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU
FEEL ABOUT LIFE
11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR
LUCKY NUMBER
SEND THIS TO A MINIMUM OF
10 PEOPLE
WITHIN AN HOUR OF READING THIS.
IF YOU DO, YOUR WISH WILL COME TRUE.
IF YOU FAIL TO, IT WILL BECOME THE OPPOSITE
STRANGE HOW IT SEEMS TO WORK.
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